What used to be and what's to come...

For the past twenty years I have been a Texan. I moved to Houston, TX when I was six. I remember my first day of Sunday School with Mrs. Perez as our teacher. I rememnber meeting Jessica and her blue dress. I remember Kelly Snow, Michelle Crumby, the Lehmans, Perez's, Rizvi's, Smiths and many many more. Through the years this place became home and these people became like family.

My senior year of highschool everyone in my grade split and went a different direction. I left my friends and went to Denton, TX to attend Texas Woman's University. Here I found a new family and we quickly became as close as sisters. To this day I miss each of their smiling faces and I love the memories we shared every single day.

In two shorts years I completed my degree and left my friends once again. As they continued to grow together for three more years... I began to pursue life and soon marriage. In my new married life my grew very close with friends in our church. Our fond memories were full of trips to the lake house, nights at the wine bar, game nights, scavenger hunts and lots of laughs! :)

Little did I know that two years later I would be in another unfamiliar place. Single again. Life is very different for a sinlge person and a married person. Many of my friends were no longer a part of my world and I started over once again.

About four months ago I confessed this to my small group. That I'm tired of starting over. I'm tired of being vunerable with people and loving them just to loose them when life transitions come along. There's nothing you can do about it - we need community. When we are married we need community with other married people. When we are single we need the support and accountability of other singles. When I am in Dallas I need other christian women here who can pour into me and I can build into them.

I told my group that I had not given them a fair chance. For six months I went to group every day without ever putting any heart into it. Without ever caring. I told them I wanted to try - to connect.

Today am I very glad that I did. I am leaving again. I am leaving and moving to Arizona. Many of my current friendships will not stand the test of time. I have no idea if and when I will be back home to Texas. Some of my friends are more like sisters and I will always have them in my life no matter what changes. For the friends I've made in the past years - I love you... I'm glad I let my walls down because I learned about people and I know why God had me in that group.

Now my life is taking an exciting new turn to Phoenix, Arizona. My new adventure with my best friend and greatest love, my Fiance, Felix. I thank God for Felix's love and support - I can't wait to tell you more about our new life together as we move in two months. It's bittersweet ... leaving my home. I am already starting to say my goodbyes and am slowly packing away each item in my home.

It's a scary thing to do, but there is no one else on this earth I'd rather be with than Felix.